Being 21 is different from what I thought

I turned 21 on April 3rd. I thought that it would be so cool. I also thought that I would be going out to bars with friends. But it is the opposite of what I thought. It is so boring, depressing or not entertaining at all. It is because of the lockdown and coronavirus. It would be a lot more funnier if I could go to bars or parties with friends. Or even to hangout with friends. Most of the 21-25year olds are really into drinking and partying. Sorry not sorry. I used to say that all I wanted to do was stay home and do nothing. But now since it is all I can do. I’ve learned that I don’t wanna anymore. It must be very bad if I miss go horseback riding and going to the gym which I kinda didn’t liked to do.

Depression is harder to deal with disabilities

I’ve been dealing with depression from 2018 to present day. The main reason I was depressed was that my ex bff Mia Garito and I had a falling out and ending the friendship. It is a long long list of reasons why we ended our friendship. And because of it, I’ve been listening to a lot Billie Eilish. My new best friends Natalie Rossi and Anna Rainbow have tried to make me feel better as they possibly could. Mia might be depressed and mad at me now but I’ve stopped caring about her and what she wants or needs.

Here is the long long list.

December 25th ,2018 to January 18th,2019( still happening)

I asked Mia to hangout sometime and she said ,” I don’t want to sleepover anymore. I answered ,” I meant like go to a movie or mall or something like that,” She relied ,” I don’t like going to the mall with you because you’re not that fun.” I sent the texts to her mom. She said,”Mia was having a rough time lately and is grumpy with everyone.” Kyle moved from Ms Nutter’s child care program to Ms Smiley’s cooking program .

I believe that I’m absolutely done the whole thing , I shouldn’t have to put up with this kind of treatment. I think that I don’t wannabe friends anymore at this point

On Friday January 18th,2019

I officially finally ended our friendship.

On March 10th, 2019

We talked and got back to our friendship.

On June 16- November 23rd , 2019

Mia has stopped all contacting me.

On December 22nd, 2019

We were going to see the Jumanji movie but that didn’t happen. Kyle and Mia didn’t inform me that they were there or where they were. After waiting in the lobby for between twenty to a half hour, my sister and I left and then Kyle texted me when I got to Devon. He said they were in the theater watching the movie but they didn’t come out to the lobby to meet me and didn’t text me till it was too late. Neither of them apologized.

On February 18, 2020

Mia ended our friendship because she said that there were a lot of times where we didn’t get along well.

On February 20-24, 2020

I tried to ask her for my stuff back but she refused because we were NOT FRIENDS ANYMORE.

On February 25, 2020

I texted Mia. I said tell Cassidy I say hi. I wish the both of you the best. GOODBYE Miss Mia Juliette Garito have a wonderful ten years!

And that’s why I was depressed and have been listening to a lot of Billie Eilish. I hope that this doesn’t make you feel depressed and listen to a lot of Billie Eilish. She is a good artist though.

Walking the dog is harder with disabilities.

On Halloween of 2018, I got home from school. I just got my pug Bella outside and a older woman with her dog appeared. So I decided to try to pull Bella back inside to wait for the woman and dog to pass. I pulled Bella back to step but Bella literally pulled me closer to woman and dog. Dog was a curly white with black spots. Bella’s leash slipped out of my hand because I have cerebral palsy in my hands and feet. I guess Bella was playfully snapping at the dog. Bella must’ve gotten too close to the dog. The woman thought Bella bit her dog. She was totally fulled out yelled at me. Like ,” Get Your Dog! Get your dog! Get your stupid dog!” I continually said I’m trying to Ma’am.

As I bend down to pick up the leash, the woman hit me hard on my back. I hit her back but not hard. I yelled at her not to hit me. After that, woman and I moved back to my driveway. She started to yell at me again. Like,” Text or call your boss but she meant my mom.”So I pulled out my phone and began to text my mom as I’m telling the woman I can’t because she’s at work.

The woman didn’t care at all. She said,” Call your mom! Call her! I might need your info , I’ll have to go to the vet and then sue you, you’ll have to pay the bill!Hurry up! Just call her up!” She also said that she’ll need my info because she’d have to go to the vet , her dog is injured five or seven times. But like if the dog is injured it’s cause she was holding her dog so tightly. My awesome neighbor Bill heard the fight and asked me what happened. I tried to tell him as well as I could but I was so scared and nervous. Bill tried to calm down the woman. The leash slipped out of my hand again and Bill helped me pick it up as the woman was frantically screaming “Aahhhh!” After one or two minutes. I just walked in the house. I closed the door and locked it. I tried to text my mom as I cried so hard. My mom called me and I told her between cries. As soon as she got home I told the woman hit me hard on my back. She looked at my back and luckily no marks or bruises . The next or the day after next,my mom saw Bill as he saw my mom. Bill told my mom what have happened. A year later, my mom and I saw the woman and her dog. She still hasn’t sued us. On December I just started to walk Bella again. The woman has scarred me for life. I never want to take Bella on a walk alone. Now my mom walks the terrier jack Russell mix mutt Franklin and Bella herself. I walk next to her.


Hi I’m Jordan. I just turned twenty one on Friday. I go to Immaculata University. My major is history, and my minor might be criminology. My interests are Indiana Jones, Star Wars, Marvel, and some other Disney movies. I love Disney World. My favorite animals are cheetahs , bats, dolphins, wolves, dogs and cats. I also love shopping, movies, some zoo animals,boxing and watching tv. I have epilepsy cerebral palsy and speech problems. It is very hard to live with disabilities. I’ve been picked on and bullied from elementary to middle school. One day I’d like to able to drive a car but i can’t because I have epilepsy. I’ve dreamed about moving away from home and my parents. I’d still need help with a lot of stuff if I moved out.